Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Help me…
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Monday, January 23, 2012
miss.
Can I even miss you? I hate this……
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Friday, January 20, 2012
Happy Birthday to…
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Posted by Axronsam at 12:06 AM
holding back.
I don't dare to ask. I don't dare to be the first to wish.. I don't dare to express too much.. I'm holding back myself... my chest ache.. I'm supposed to be numbed.. yet i still feel the aching in my chest... why…
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Posted by Axronsam at 12:06 AM
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Hide.
I'm emotionally numbed. I want a good hiding spot...
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Friday, October 28, 2011
Bad. `
They say something has changed.They say I've changed.
They tell me somewhere I turned cold, that I used to be so affectionate.
They say something has changed.
They say I've changed.
They tell me somewhere I turned cold, that I used to be so affectionate.
They claim they don't understand.
They tell me I used to be cheerful but now my eyes and tone of my voice lost its light and admits fear.
Unsure whether it's because of the painful memory but I go on by emptying my heart.
Lucid hearts are defective products of this world. That's why I badly want to taint mine.
They tell me that if you love, you start to take after each other; maybe I want to take after you a bit.
Atrocious. Love is atrocious.
You were the very reason I breathe for, but now you're suffocating me.
Love is so bad, bad, bad, bad, bad.
Love only gets worse as you dig deeper.
Love is so bad, bad, bad, bad, bad.
Love only pains as you learn about it.
More you know, worse you become.
The words I wouldn't normally get riled up about: "You don't seem yourself".
I question, "What is me?" but of course I know only too well.
I can't bear to look at myself.
Whether I've been embraced or have closed my eyes, I just can't sleep at ease.
I yearn for alcohol, something I usually have hard drinking.
Drunk on anxiety, as the dawn drizzle pours down I stagger through the street
I start to quarrel and my mouth that once used to whisper so many kind words has been tainted by a profanity.
Can't rest till this small thing becomes a catastrophe.
I lie customarily and harass in the name of 'Love'
Atrocious. Humans are atrocious.
You were the very reason I breathe for, but now you're suffocating me.
Love is so bad, bad, bad, bad, bad.
Love only gets worse as you dig deeper.
Love is so bad, bad, bad, bad, bad.
Love only pains as you learn about it.
More you know, worse you become.
Only thing that's worse than you is,
I, who couldn't forget you and ended up being tainted.
I, who continues to act cold towards the other people.
Only thing that's worse than you is,
I, who couldn't forget you and ended up being tainted.
I, who is cold towards the other people.
Bad, it's so bad.
It hurts.
It hurts so much.
What we call love.
Love is a sickness.
Can I get a witness?
Bad, it's so bad.
It hurts.
It hurts so much.
What we call love.
Love is a sickness.
Can I get a witness?
Love is a sickness.
Love.
Love is so bad, bad, bad, bad, bad.
Love only gets worse as you dig deeper.
Love is so bad, bad, bad, bad, bad.
Love only pains as you learn about it.
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Posted by Axronsam at 6:07 PM
Monday, October 3, 2011
lost.
I feel like my emotions are very lost... I dont know how am I feeling.. Only an aching once in a while... Its irritating.. My mind feels like a mess.. A horrible mess... I'm unsure what my mind would become if this continues... Its like I'm losing my mind out.. Yet I'm so good enduring it that no one knew anything at all...I'm going crazy...
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Posted by Axronsam at 2:29 AM
Sunday, September 11, 2011
alive
Dont anyone know how much pain, how much ache i had?Its a surprise and good sign that i'm still alive and knows what I'm doing...
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Posted by Axronsam at 3:25 AM
Friday, August 26, 2011
worried
My chest is aching much more...its like I felt more worried..
I never gotten this feeling before...
its making me feel very distracted..
its like its linked to those dreams i had...
It'll drive me insane sooner or later..
I need a cure..
but the thing is I don't even know what wrong with me...
I felt so messed up in my mind...
I guess..
I'm worried... for you..
when you don't even know what I'm feeling all these time...
I'm so stubborn...
such a stupid fool..
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Posted by Axronsam at 1:08 AM
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
like.
I like her, yet I know she'll never like me back.
All I can do is to help her as much as possible in studies..
What else can I do..?
Its better if I'm the one getting hurt then her being troubled.
right..?
Posted by Axronsam at 12:59 AM
Monday, August 22, 2011
sacrifice
I'm willing to sacrifice everyone I have now for a better future of you.But I'll surely be said and scolded for all these.
"Why are you doing so much for that person when she don't even loves you back?"
"Why giving so much care when they might not even give a dam about you after everything's over?"
true..
Then what should I do?
Finish every single one of them?
I can't.. I'm too weak hearted.
My emotions are suffocating me..
I can't sleep well at night.
Why am I always feeling all these now..?
I must not get distracted.
They'll forget me sooner or later..(?)
I might as well just...