Friday, July 29, 2011

headache.

F*_k.

fking all the same.

I dam irritated. super irritated...

But what ca I do? Just smile and take the blame. Just smile and endure everything. Perseverance and endurance. I never ask for anything much. Never asked for too many.
I just want everything to be simple. I just want to have peace.
But this world is to fking noisy. Bunch of noise pollution.

What if I'm very selfish?
What if I don't care about anyone of you?
I just study my own stuff and fk care anyone of you?

Yet I forgive all the mistake you humans made. Every single one of it. Even when you don't even know you're wrong. I closed my eyes and hope you'll learn and change better.

No wonder I find it hard to trust anyone.. Even the only person I seems to be able to trust in that classroom.. I've seem to lose some hope in it. How can I trust you when you don't even trust me that much?
I care so much. I worry so much. Don't you feel anything...?
Then what am I doing all these for? I'm not the one giving you all those laughter anyway.. And feeling that all your "thanks" are getting empty.. Its like you're saying it just to say it.

I don't what to think this way. I hate my brain. Yet everyone say I'm smart and want a brain like mind...
If they really have a brain like mine, they'll surely regret.

I must maintain calm. Maintain patience....
I need some time to peace my mind up...
But how...?

I shouldn't be like this.

Posted by Axronsam at 11:03 PM