I'm so lost.. I don't know what to do anymore.. I don't know what to say anymore..
I feel that I'm not me anymore.. Feeling all different.. as though nothing bad happen...
18years only.. these type of things shouldn't happen... too early... too serious....
Maybe I'm born as a Pisces for a reason...
screw these.. I hate myself.
laugh at me all you want... I may just be a 'robot' after all..
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Posted by Axronsam at 5:06 PM
Monday, December 27, 2010
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I just can't get myself over it..
Every time i saw the inbox.. It just brings back the mood..
Those horrible dreams... Those nightmare..
I'm afraid that I cant face you anymore.. a phobia... a fear... a nightmare...
I want to speak up.. but the voice just don't wanna come out...
feeling mute..
咳... 为何这样呢...? 我问我自己.....
哈哈.. 好笨啊...
Posted by Axronsam at 1:19 AM
27/12/2010 's reading.
There is great depth to your conversations and thoughts. You find yourself revealing secrets or very private matters, and also asking very penetrating questions of others. Superficial answers don't satisfy you now. This is an excellent time to learn more about your own inner depths.
Posted by Axronsam at 1:17 AM
Sunday, December 26, 2010
damaged.
I don't know anymore..
I'm really confuse...
getting lost here and there...
I need time..
I need to find a way out..
I just want to know a cure to these headache..
Why do I think so much..?
Why do I care so much..?
Humans nature..
bad dreams.
Posted by Axronsam at 12:52 AM
Friday, December 24, 2010
trust?
Seriously can't trust humans easily eh..?
I don't know what's in my mind already...
F.
lost here.
Posted by Axronsam at 12:56 AM
Thursday, December 23, 2010
sad christmas..?
got rejected.. friends quarrel.. people getting sick.. lots of unfinished projects..
beside my mum's birthday..
what else can i be happy about this Christmas..?
I never knew I'll come to this state... );
Posted by Axronsam at 10:28 PM
haunt
now its haunting me every night.. every day..
Posted by Axronsam at 11:30 AM
first.
my 'first' comes with a heavy hit.. a very heavy one.. how you expect me to get back up thats easily..?
never thought it'll bring so much misery....
don't feel the same anymore..
but everything else will seems like nothing's bad happen...
there's nothing to be angry about..
its just full of sadness and why...
need time....
don't rush me.
Posted by Axronsam at 1:05 AM
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
22/12/2010 horocope reading.
Mixed emotions may be the theme of the day, and trying to sort them out verbally can be far more effort than it's really worth and ultimately an unsatisfying process. If you find yourself on the wrong end of an argument with your partner then try to patch things up as best you can and let circumstances take care of the rest.
Posted by Axronsam at 2:37 PM
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Empty
Girl I swear I’m never going through this again I know that you thought you’d win And before I give you another try I’d die
Love won’t make you cry or ask why Oh why So I’ll deny my heart cause I won’t live a lie Why try
C* Your heart is empty And you’re so cold You don’t care about you and I Your heart is empty You won’t let go But I’m walkin out this life Why can’t you let it go Let it go let it go let it go Girl because your heart is empty Why can’t you let it go Let it go let it go let it go Girl because your heart is empty *
There you go Tryna tell me how to be a man When that’s something you just don’t understand It’s time to bring your truth to light No lie Love won’t make you cry or ask why Oh why So I’ll deny my heart cause I won’t live a lie Why try
C**
Your heart is gone My heart is strong Leave me alone leave me alone Your heart is gone My heart is strong Leave me alone leave me alone Your heart is empty Your heart is empty Your heart is empty Girl because your heart is empty
C**
Posted by Axronsam at 12:03 PM
..
this shows that I'm just not good enough.. thats all and thats it..
Posted by Axronsam at 10:40 AM
Thursday, December 16, 2010
why?
Why? 为什么？ なぜ..？ pourquoi ..?
Posted by Axronsam at 11:33 PM
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Shadows
Mornings after Still lingers Just waking up I see a shadow of you Making breakfast for two I go driving Past our place and I see this girl walk by I smell her perfume For a moment I wish it was you I'm not gonna tell ya I'm not gonna say that I'm okay, no I'm tryin' to get over I'm tryin' to get far away from our mistakes
Chorus: But I see shadows Everywhere that I go It's you, reminding me Of how we were Of how it was I see shadows Everywhere they follow It's you and memories Of how we loved I've had enough of your shadows
Four months gone I can't feel you I don't understand it Where did you go? I hate that you're all that I know I'm not gonna tell ya I'm not gonna say that I'm okay, no I'm tryin to get over I'm tryin' to get far away from our mistakes
Chorus: But I see shadows Everywhere that I go It's you, reminding me Of how we were Of how it was I see shadows Everywhere they follow It's you and memories Of how we loved I've had enough of your shadows
You couldn't love me So why won't you leave me Shadows Alone is the only place I want to be I see shadows Everywhere that I go It's you, reminding me Of how to love I've had enough I see shadows Everywhere they follow It's you, the memories Of how we loved I've had enough Your shadows It's you, the memories Of how we loved I've had enough of your shadows Your shadows
Posted by Axronsam at 9:17 PM
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
crazy..
Crazy like a mad devil~!
ahahahahahahahaha
ahahahahahahahaha
ahahahahahahahaha
ahahahahahahahaha
ahahahahahahahaha
ahahahahahahahaha
Posted by Axronsam at 12:25 PM
14/12/2010 horocope reading.
You need to promote yourself and to let others know of your potential talents. Playing the modest type today won't do you any favours. People need to know straight up front who you are and what you bring to the table. Take this as both financial and romantic advice.
Explosive arguments could lead to going your own way when someone or something tries to confine you. Your own sense of independence and freedom is being challenged. It could be a good time to look at why this issue is bothering you, you may encounter it again in the future so deal with it now so the knee jerk reactions don't occur the next time the issue arises.
Posted by Axronsam at 12:23 PM
gone
Posted by Axronsam at 12:22 PM
Sunday, December 12, 2010
12/12/2010 horocope reading.
You may be wearing your heart on your sleeve and everyone is out to abuse your resources-both mental and material. Don't be an easy target today when friends attempt take advantage of your good nature and push it beyond what can reasonably be expected of you. Sometimes you simply have to say no.
Today is a good time to express your feelings with conviction, knowing that there will be response in kind. Situations that arise now will have lasting clarity and a quality of reinvention as they move along, as your head and heart are on the same page and will tend to remain that way. Giving and receiving appreciation, love, and happiness come into your life now. You are moved to express your affections more openly than usual.
Posted by Axronsam at 9:57 AM
Saturday, December 11, 2010
changed.
one semester, many things changes too much.. time passes too fast.. people changes too...
a fear to walk forward. a greed to take everything. a hate that seek revenge.
why are humans like these. I don't understand. can't they just stop thinking too much of not being enough, and to think that its better then nothing..?
it hurt to see all these...
I just wish to do my best.. thats all..(?)
Posted by Axronsam at 11:13 PM
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
why
Same class, but feels as though we are worlds apart... Why have it come this this state..?